2014 is here, friends! We did it! We made it through another year, together. I will admit, some parts of it were a bit of a rough patch, but we still made it through.
2013 was my year of actions, as I said in my year in review post. So, in true fashion, for New Years Eve, I just relaxed. I came home from work and I hung out with my soul sister K, my girls and the boy. We watched The Doctor Who marathon on BBC until 11:50 to watch the ball drop. Us girls straightened our hair and threw on makeup, just because we could. I proceeded to bombard my FB with these pics, maybe to the dismay of my friends because they just kept coming.
It’s too early for me to be profound, which is good, because profound is too deep for me at this time in the morning. It also goes with my theme for 2014, which is to just be simple. I want to simply be good, and sometimes maybe simply be bad. I want to make mistakes and learn how to learn from them.
Simple isn’t easy, especially for a girl who only knows how to complicate and over-analyze. Simple will be a path and one I may have to make on my own, since this ground for me has not been uncovered. It isn’t just saying, “Okay! We are going to be simple now!” but rather knowing what moments it is okay to be simple. Here are some other things I would like to do this year:
Getting better with my own self and feeling more comfortable in my skin. I like to hide myself in bigger clothing; it makes me feel safe and secure. I realized the damage I could unintentionally be doing to my daughters by striving so hard and never being satisfied about who I actually am. When we were doing our make-up (and trust, I rarely do that), Julie wanted hers done too because she said she wanted to be pretty like me. It was humbling for two reasons. 1 – In her eyes, I am pretty. 2 – In her mind, she can only be pretty in makeup. I told her she didn’t need the makeup because she was already perfectly beautiful, but I would let her have some for fun. This year, I strive to simply accept who I am in all fashions, and to start giving my daughters that foundation they need. They deserve that and so do I.
I need to reconnect a little more. I need to simply get back to basics, and stop letting technology do the work for me. Facebook is great and all, but it shouldn’t be the only form of communications I have. Yes, this sounds simple, but it can be hard with work schedules and just plain tired. I need to learn to do better in this area, even if it is just a card in the mail or a letter. Who doesn’t love getting something in the mail that just says “Hi, I am thinking about you.”. I especially need to do this with my mom, who I do talk to on a regular basis, but sometimes I think she needs that.
The Boy’s New Year wish was to go to NY and see Times Square. He wasn’t even shooting for NY Eve, just a chance to go. I can make that happen for him.
2013, I am not sorry to see you go. You were exactly the year I needed you to be, and I was exactly the right person I needed to be. I would even strive and say I was fantastic. 2014, you have a lot to live up to, but I am gladly accepting this challenge and knowing we are going to hit every mark. Well, most of them. Ok, some of them. Simple is my plan, so if I don’t hit them all, I will be okay just knowing I tried.
And before I go, I shall spare you some selfies! Don’t worry, The Boy is just drinking sparkling cider.
Happy 2014, friends. I hope it is all you want it to be and then some more. Make it happen and make it count.